Well another day in my life!
Still feeling like shit. Today has been really stressful. I feel 10x worse then
I did yesterday. I'm tired of feeling this way. I've been feeling confused
latley, and like really weird and odd, like places I've been to lots of times
just feel weird to me. I don't feel like the same person, and it's scarying me.
I feel like I'm going to just throw up today! I've been to the ER a few times
this month all my blood test came back fine, the doctor ordered an MRI and MRA
which both came back normal, I just don't get why I feel this way!
Today I'm upset because I feel horrible AGAIN! And the guy I've been with for 7 years has done nothing but treat me like shit and be abusive to me, he lived with me but my mom kicked him out about a week ago and well my mom started dating a guy, don't get me wrong I'm really really happy for her because he treats her with respect and he doesn't drink or anything like her other boyfriends did, but now shes never home, and she kicked my boyfriend out so I'm always here alone now and it sucks. I really wish I could get over feeling the way I do so I can get my license. I'm tired of having nothing going for myself. .....Oh and I met some guy off Facebook in May we have been talking on Facebook since May hes from here (Ohio), but moved to Florida. He has 3 kids, and 2 of them live with him which he sent them up to be with their mother for Summer and he came to Ohio to get them and spend time with his family for a few weeks. I was the first place he stopped! I was sooo happy to see him! He is gorgeous! Not sure though because he reminds me of my boyfriend to much, and he lives far away. He is still in Ohio but will leaving in like a week so it really sucks! ERR! Everything is just so stressful. We didn't have sex or anything, because yes I do have a boyfriend, but I really want to leave him, but for some reason I just can't let him go. He treats me bad and yells at me and when I'm around him I'm depressed because he always makes fun of me. I'm sure he doesn't help my problems I'm going through right now. I just want to feeeelll betterrrrr! :(
Today I'm upset because I feel horrible AGAIN! And the guy I've been with for 7 years has done nothing but treat me like shit and be abusive to me, he lived with me but my mom kicked him out about a week ago and well my mom started dating a guy, don't get me wrong I'm really really happy for her because he treats her with respect and he doesn't drink or anything like her other boyfriends did, but now shes never home, and she kicked my boyfriend out so I'm always here alone now and it sucks. I really wish I could get over feeling the way I do so I can get my license. I'm tired of having nothing going for myself. .....Oh and I met some guy off Facebook in May we have been talking on Facebook since May hes from here (Ohio), but moved to Florida. He has 3 kids, and 2 of them live with him which he sent them up to be with their mother for Summer and he came to Ohio to get them and spend time with his family for a few weeks. I was the first place he stopped! I was sooo happy to see him! He is gorgeous! Not sure though because he reminds me of my boyfriend to much, and he lives far away. He is still in Ohio but will leaving in like a week so it really sucks! ERR! Everything is just so stressful. We didn't have sex or anything, because yes I do have a boyfriend, but I really want to leave him, but for some reason I just can't let him go. He treats me bad and yells at me and when I'm around him I'm depressed because he always makes fun of me. I'm sure he doesn't help my problems I'm going through right now. I just want to feeeelll betterrrrr! :(
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